The 23rd.

I've decided to finally update my blog. I really should do this more often, since I know most of you people just LOVE reading about the garbage that I write. Right? :)

Anyway, today is; my 23rd birthday. I can't say I'm too happy, nor can I say I'm really depressed. I'm pretty much, just all right.. and I think I'm content...which, actually can be a good thing.

I read a speech this morning, by Steve Jobs, the CEO of Apple. Found an extremely interesting line, --

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow
connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."

I found this, interestingly enough, extremely valuable in my life at this EXACT moment. Turning 23 is just another step into the future. At this point in time, things seem very fuzzy, sometimes I feel I don't have a direction, sometimes I feel lost, sometimes I feel as though I am never going to 'follow my dream', become satisfied, or successfully grasp what it is that I'm looking for...

But then I read that line, and I thought- He's right you know;-- you can't possibly KNOW what is going to happen in the future, you can't possibly connect the dots until you look back. Everything that I do, every experience I experience, comes with a price, it will come with a dot, and all these dots will, in fact, line up in my future. The dots will connect, and my future will be made. Until then, I just know I have to keep creating these dots, keep pressing onward, because dots won't get made if I just idle about.

Turning 23 is a new chapter, it's a new dot behind me. I know that I'm not going to succeed in everything I do, but that's just part the refinement process. I am excited, I am energized and I know that the dots WILL connect, and when I see that collection happen- I am going to be in utter awe.

I have also decided, writing will be my new outlet. It will be how I am able to collect and direct my thoughts. It will be a way for me to categorize my thoughts, organize them, and somehow get my own points across to MY self.